JustJane48

Hey Buddys!!! Hope everyone’s Wednesday is a good one.  The sun is nice and bright here in Michigan, the flower gardens all planted and I’m ready for summer  and vacations!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So if you look deep down inside can you find out why you became overweight?  They say people overweight become this way because of lifes experiences and situations. 

I’ve realized along time ago food was comfort for me.  Then cigerettes, then drugs, then alcohol. 

Finally at 49, all of my vices are gone, even the horrible cravings for food :)  Except the darn night snacking. :(  HELP!!!

Maybe if you really search for what has been bothering you…and why you have been gaining weight, you’ll find the answer…..deal with that, and start fresh with your Weight Loss Journey!!!

My story is sh0rt, I was adopted (never thought it bothered me) but all in all someone didn’t want me….I had a horrible abusive childhood.  Hung out with the wrong crowd, did the drugs, married an abusive husband….etc…..

Self medication was my game, today healthy eating is the only solution for my life.  I really hope everyone out there can find that place…the place that will let things go, or allow you to deal with them and go full force towards your new healthy lifestyle!!!

IF I CAN DO THIS, I KNOW YOU ALL CAN DO IT TOO!!!

Happy Friday Buddys!!!  Yup another weekend is upon us….how will we all do?

We’ll all be great, because we are a part of the BuddySlim family “Proud Smile”

My progress has been slow, but the scale is showing hope.  My exercise has really gotten better

I have God to thank for all this strength…I thank my husband and all my special Buddys

I’m wishing you all a wonderful weekend full of fun and surprises….blessings….and lots of smiles

Every morning I put my playlist on…love it because I cannever get enough music.

If you get just a minute, there is a beautiful song that I think everyone would enjoy.

http://www.playlist.com     Search     Tommy Shane Steiner      Song…..What if She is an Angel.

This really hits close to home with everyone struggling with the economy. 

Ok on a happy note, lets all make good choices….eat healthy and get some exercise in and most of all give lots of hugs!!!

Good Morning Everybody!!!!  The sun is finally shining here and it make me happy!!!!

My husband and I have been working sooooooooo hard to get rid of all the bad addictions  we had.

My husband is a coffee lover, so that is one he can’t possibly give up….”COFFEE LUSH”  lol!!!

I hardly drink 1/2 cup maybe once a week, so I’m coffee free (almost)

I used to drink Diet Coke…….way too much….and any other soda I could get my hands on. Same with my hubby.

Then we realized how bad the soda was ( I really knew but was in denial) so we switched to sparkling fruit flavored waters (carbonated)  Guess I can’t get enough of the bubbly, fizzing water…the CARBONATION!!!!

I wrote Dr. Marc and asked his opinion on Diet Sodas, and Carbonated water.  He told me Carbonation depletes the bodys calcium and there is no way to get it back. Plus it gives you the full feeling, for me bloating

So we’ve finally made the next step…..Aquafina Flavor Splash….0 cal…0 nothing…except 65 mg sodium.  No carbonation, and we only have it as a treat at night

Sooooooooooooo  all in all, no nicotine (will be

FOOD AND MORE FOOD….FRIED, GREASY, FATTY, SWEET, SALTY, ANY KIND OF FOOD

I’m proud to say we’ve done this, could have never done it without my hubby by my side and all of you helping me.

Love you Guys  

Smiling is infectious, you catch it like the flu,

When someone smiled at me today,

I started smiling too.

I passed around the corner

and someone saw my grin

When he smiled I realized

I’d passed it on to him

I thought about that smile

then I realized its worth

A single smile, just like mine,

Could travel round the earth.

So, if you feel a smile begin

don’t leave it undetected

Let’s start an epidemic quick,

and get the world infected :)        :)         :)        

Yesterday I received a card in my mailbox telling me I had a package to pick up. 

I was pretty sure what it was.  I WAS RIGHT

I love to meet people from other countries.  Its so interesting learning their customs, foods, and especially the words they use.  For instance, we here called Bologna, onion, relish, mayo ground up “Minced Bologna”  or some call it “Sandwich Spread”

In Canada they call it mush meat.  Same exact ingrediants different name.  Do you realize they REALLY do eat plumb pudding???????????  how cool is that

My friend had been talking about all the Christmas preparations and what is traditional for their holiday.  She told me she must go out and get a “Christmas Cake”  The Mormons are well know for wonderful cooking and my friend goes each year to get her “Christmas Cake” there. 

I was interested   DUH..of course cuz it was CAKE!!! asked what it was like because I’d never heard of it.  She had a difficult time explaining it, but said if she could get another one she would send it for me to try.

OMG Buddys….it is actually a “fruitcake”  but unlike any other fruitcake I’ve ever had.  YUMMY…and I’ve already had 2 pieces of it.  And its calling my name  LOL!!!

Guess I’ll have to walk an extra mile to make up for this.  “Big Tired Sigh”

Love You Guys….A big welcome to all coming in new…and has anyone see Little Flower lately?  and lets keep Nana/Bette Jo in our prayers, she is recovering from surgery. 

Hello special buddys out there.  Well its FRIDAY!!!! thats enough to put a huge smile on your face. 

I found this adorable picture as I was logging into BuddySlim.  I’m not one to take others pictures, but as I checked out her profile page, she joined April 21, and her last log in was April 21.  So I figured I could use her picture.

My scale is not my best friend these days :(  I have to get a handle on this night snacking.  My husband and I are working hard on changing this habit.  We both love celery and carrots with ranch dressing, so I think this alternative would be the answer, its just sticking to it.

Well I hope everyone has had a successful week, and wishing a happy and blessed weekend!!!

A big shout out my buddyslim buddys

After all this time of yo-yo dieting, I’ve finally found a balance of eating that works for me.  I’m really excited because this plan is one I can stick with and it is heart healthy.

My doctor wanted to prescribe Potasium pills.  If anyone has ever seen them they are like horse pills.  I said….no please, isn’t there another option.  He said if you promise to eat foods with Potasium you can skip the pill.  Some foods which are healthy, oranges, bannanas, V8 juice, potatoes etc…..

So here goes the plan….TA DA!!!!!!!!!!!!

My healthy protein shake in the morning.

Big glass of orange juice or a fresh orange mid morning.

Big glass of V8 juice (low sodium of course) lunch time.  Maybe some carrots and celery also.

A sensible dinner at night.  Wa La!!!!  this works and I’m confident if I can stick to this the goals will be met.  YAHOO!!!!!

And thank you Shanna for suggesting a typing job from home.  I didn’t enjoy the Medical Transcription very much, but I am looking into home typists in my area.  I’ve already submitted one application!!!

Please keep your fingers crossed for me

You may be thinking you know where you want to go, but My purpose for you is what will work.  As my child, every step you take is ordered by Me.  I am actively involved in your life, pointing you toward true success.

Many are the plans in a man’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.

                                    Proverbs 19:21

The steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord: and he delighteth in his way.

                                       Psalm 37:23

Sending big hugs all around and all of Gods blessings!!!

Hello BuddySlimmers :)  Hope all are well today.  As I read blogs, I can see some people struggle.   I’m sorry but we are all here for you!!!

Last night my husband and I attended my “little sisters” Christmas Concert.  It was so much fun, remember my son is 21 so its been a longgggggggggg time for me.  I laughed I cried…I tapped my foot and just had fun. I stepped down from being an official Big Sister, but haven’t forgotten Katelin.  I’ve been to her birthday party, she’s been to Angelas baby shower, we’ve talked on the phone.  I will stay in touch with her forever

So at the concert they sang songs from Charlie Browns Christmas, The Grinch, and one of my favorites…”Grandma got run over by a reindeer”  Molly which is Katelins friend has down syndrome. She was all dressed in a pretty long green dress, she didn’t do much singing but she brought tears to my eyes.  These are gods children…and each so precious.  But my Katelin, she was just a singin away!!!  So after the concert my Husband wanted to go through a fast food.  He was hoping Kentucky Fried Chicken, and I said maybe we could just find something at home!!!  I did it, I did resist the tempation.  One day at a time.

Love you all…..Have a Great Evening

Hello buddys out there in BuddySlim.  Not having  a good week so far, but I do need to first thank you for all the comments on my last blog.  I came home today from a long emotional day with my boys and I read all these comments and I can just feel the love here.  Thank you all sooooooooooooo much for being here for myself, and everyone in need.

Well here goes, my disability was denied :(  I’m just so lost right now.  I realize I will have to hire a lawyer (already have one picked out)  but the problem is it will take up to a year or more for an appeal.  My medical co-pays and prescription costs are way out of control here.  Bills in collections, can’t always fill my prescriptions.  I really needed the help

To top that off, this morning I was up at 6:00 a.m. (which is difficult because of my meds) on the road at 7:00 a.m. to pick up Jon for probation.  8:00 a.m. I pull into his work, pick him up, head back towards my house (45 mins away) and pick up Chris for his probation.  Drive another 45 minutes to probation.  The probation officer asked if I would like to sit in.  We all went in (they felt really odd)  I listened as she questioned the boys, and I knew they were not telling the truth.  She pointed out jail time for each and if they didn’t straighten up this would be the life for them.

Then she asked me “Mom what do you think of all of this”  I was stuck….couldn’t think, wanted to just cry…..and I said ” Well my boys are good kids, I’m sure you here that from every mother, but these guys have a real heart and care about people.  I’m so sad, my heart is broken that they are behaving this way.  I don’t know how to wake them up and change their ways.”

She then talked some more to them about choices.  I taught them choices in life, I was their mother and I raised them pretty much by myself.  Their father was too busy getting high, or drunk or taking pain pills to take the time to help the children or myself. I’m not looking for sympathy or pity but its a fact their choices have to be based on something in their childhood.  Was it seeing their father drunk, high, or maybe the fact he worked 2nd shift and couldn’t take time to enjoy his children.  My children are my life and this has to stop.  Jon is 23, Chris just turned 21 and in trouble with the law.  And not just small things.  It took all I had to not break down right there in her office.  Seems the tears are still coming, and I feel like I am in this dark place.  Finally at 1:50 p.m. I’m home…so thats 7:00 until 1:50 p.m. because of their choices.  Grrrrrr……………..

Now I really know how it feels, I’ve heard people here say they were in a “dark place”  and now I truly know that feeling.

The scary part is I’m questioning my faith.  I realize God has a plan, but is his plan to continuely make me hurt.  I can put this smile on my face, and normally I do no matter what life hands me, but you know what I feel like I’m at the end.  Throw in the towel, wave the white flag, maybe just go to bed for the next few days.

Ok….thank you for letting me vent.  You guys are just the best ever and I couldn’t get along with your friendships.

Hope you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving filled with blessings and love.

Hugs to you all

Jane

Whew, what a rough few days around here.

The company has come and left and we had a ball!!! We played miniature golf, went bowling and went to the movies (Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2)  (Sorry Shanna, Annie voted for this one, I tried to convince them to go to Mama Mia ) But we had fun and probably ate a few wrong things.  I enjoyed every minute and wouldn’t trade it for anything.

Mom and Annie flew out on Tuesday at 1:45 p.m.  Alan and I went to Red Lobster for lunch….YUMMY!!!  We then went to get Talan for a few hours to give pregnant Angela a break  LOL!!

Had a good night, woke up on Wednesday morning at 8:00 a.m. and felt some chest pain.  I knew right then and there I would be going to the hospital.  I’ve known this episode was coming on for a while.  I did go to the cardiac doc in April and she said I was fine.  I felt she was wrong as I was leaving.

The pain was getting worse and the breathing labored….I called Jon (my son) and said please call 911.  By 9:00 a.m. I was in the ambulance.

I was in intensive care for 3 days.  A LONG 3 days.

I had a flash pulmonary edema once again.  This will be the third visit and sadly this was the one that put me over the edge.

A normal heart’s injection fraction (the ability to pump fluid through the heart into the body) is 55% - 70%  My heart has been hovering around 30- 35%  The tests this time show my injection fraction rate down to 23%  Anything under 30% qualifies you for some devices such as debibulators/pacemakers, etc.  It also qualifies me for complete disability through the state. This is good as we could use the money because I am unable to work outside the home.  I’ll also be assured insurance which will give us peace of mind.

I weighed a whopping 230 pounds upon arrival in the hospital.  The doctors are guessing I had about 15 pounds in retained fluid.  When I came home on Friday evening I weighted in at 216.  Today is 215.  I expect to see the numbers go down because I’m scared to death to do anything wrong.

The walking will be a slow process because of my weak heart.  I can only start out about 10 minutes a walk and work up from there.

Our house is filled with fresh fruits and vegetables.  Good chicken, ground turkey and only a little red meat.  No more salt, we gave all the snacks to my daughter. 

Here we go again…and this time I’ll make it.  I’m going to change my weight ticker once again and with Gods help and  my determination I will win this battle.  The doctor said I am in the “end stages” of congestive heart failure.  There are 4 stages and I’m in stage 3 and showing conditions of stage 4.  I’m not giving up this fight my buddys.  I have way too much to live for.  I may have a weak heart, but I have a determined mind and an attitude that would just about knock you down…LOL!!

I’m so sorry to hear of the news of Angelas Mother….and I continue to pray for Kamas mother, and I hear Marge was in the hospital.  Did I hear Daryl is back at BuddySlim?  I need to look him up as he also suffers with heart problems.  Jennifer I’m praying your ankle heals quickly, and Tatiana I hope you are up and walking again.

I hope I haven’t missed anyone else with medical issues.  I love you all and I have missed you so much.

Sending Gods love and Blessings to you all

Well I did it “sigh”  Yesterday was going to be a challenge, and challenge it was.  With this new eating program I have to take 1 day a week and drink a special protein/vitamin drink and drink 8 glasses of water or more throughout the day.

I am allowed healthy snacks, such as celery, tomatoes, apples slices, things such as this. I’ve done this before, actually made it through the entire weekend last weekend, but this time decided to slow it down a bit.  I’ve lost considerably and the inches are coming off.

I admit I feel better then I ever have, especially given my age and heart condition.

Sooooooooooooo my happy news is I made it through yesterday!!!  I woke up feeling happy and satisfied ready to tackle another day.  I’m watching the sunrise and I know it will be a beautiful day. 

We are trying a new church this morning and I’m so excited and anxious  Service isn’t until 10:30 and its only 7:15, so that gives me time for a good walk on the treadmill and a nice hot shower

I wish everyone a blessed Sunday…stay happy and positive in everything you do.

. . . Seek not to understand that thou mayest believe, but believe that thou mayest understand.

St. Augustine, 416

April 27, 2008

We have the same spirit of faith, . . . I believed, and therefore have I spoken; we also believe, and therefore speak.

2 Corinthians 4:13