Good afternoon my Buddys!! Hows everyone doing this Thursday afternoon (almost the weekend…YIPPEE).
Have I posted this silly pic before? It just makes me smile, so if you’ve seen it before, hope it makes you smile once again
I’ve been carried, supported, prayed for and loved more then anyone should ever be. I’m so blessed and I’m taking some of the advice given to me.
Today life has shown me many things….my buddies have pointed out many things. After alot of thinking I’m shifting gears as of today. I have tried to always be the strong one with the smile on my face. I’ve been in the back seat, and I don’t regret even one minute of living my life (in the past) that way.
But…………………..not any more. For those of you who have held my hand through the terrible ordeal with my father know how emotional it has been. I am really finally ready to surrender ALL the pain to God. I’m ready to ask for ALL the help I can get. And most importantly I’m ready once and for all to take care of MYSELF.
My dad continues to be depressed. My brother went to visit him this morning and Dad said these exact words “I just want to go home and sleep in my own bed” Well, you see, this is a sad depressed man, but a smart man as well. If he were to come home now it would be up to my Brother and I to get him in and out of bed for everything. Its impossible, so today I will have to explain to Dad that I can’t possibly take him home in the condition he is in.
So, the positive note here is I DO have the strength (Thank you to my special buddys) to stand up for myself.
I’ve done all I can do to make this transition better. I’ll bring a nice homemade BLT for dinner because he can’t find one single “Positive” thing about anything, especially the food. I leave feeling so depressed, I’ve cried way to many tears and its going to stop.
So watch out world!!!! I will love my Father, ask God to step in and help me!!!
I’m back with flying colors!! Watch out buddies!!! When I catch up on all the blogs….and get myself back on track eating properly, I will be MYSELF and HEALTHY!! and most of all really HAPPY!!
When I looked at my sweet grandsons face today as he lifted his little arms up for me to pick him up, I realize life is fragile. We have to go through so many hardships, but there are so many precious people, and moments of love in our lives that we have to hold on to so tightly. I’m holding my sweet Talan tighter then ever…he is my sunshine!!!
Wow, ok….guess I can call this Chapter I!!! LOL!!! babble babble babble!!! LOL!!!
Have a great day Buddys….You are Loved!! Each and every one of you are SPECIAL!!!
Act by faith, and the feeling will follow.
Marilyn Hickey
But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt.
James 1:6
