JustJane48

    

  The past few days have been the scariest days of my life.  We were looking forward to a fun weekend enjoying the fall weather but things took a wrong turn.

On Friday evening I was feeling really run down, finding it difficult to breathe.  We sat down for dinner, I had only a couple bites and had to get up from the table.  I took a nitroglycerin but wasn’t feeling better.  Within  5 minutes I was drowning in the fluid that had accumulated in my lungs.  Husband called 911 and thank god…THANK GOD…a neighbor 2 doors down is a paramedic.  He literally saved my life.  He had some type of mask that forced me to breath even though I felt like dying.  The ambulance finally came and 45 mins later we arrived in the ER.  I was losing consciousness and they really thought they had lost me.  Thank goodness I only remember bits and pieces, my husband has told me all the details.

So 1 night in ICU and 1/2 the next day.  I was intubated? (respirator to help me breathe) and heavily sedated.  All I remember is waking up not knowing where I was and couldn’t see anyone (husband was in the room I just didn’t see him)  I felt this foreign object in my mouth and tried to yell out and couldn’t  Guess I decided it wasn’t going to stay in my mouth and I pulled it out.  What a mistake that was, my throat hurt so bad after that.  If I wasn’t so sedated I would have never taken it out.  Nurses reassured me it happens alot.

So 4 days later after lots of blood work,  2 chest x-rays and a heart catherization they concluded it  was hypertensive pulmonary edema.  (heart failure due to high blood pressure and fluid retention)  One called it flash pulmonary edema because it came on so quicly.

I really thought the good Lord was taking me home.  Never ever have I been as scared.  Even with my heart attack and triple bypass, this one took the cake.

So, I’m thanking God for letting me live a bit longer.  Looking at life in a different way.  Appreciating even MORE the little things in life.

With my weight issues I learned alot.  One of the doctors explained to me the difficulty I’m facing is because of these factors.     Age, Menopause,  Weak Heart, Basically no Metabolism because of strong meds.  She encouraged me to just eat healthy and keep walking.  They now say I shouldn’t join Curves.  Thank goodness I didn’t, I was waiting for a better week financially to join and its a blessing I didn’t,  You have to sign a contract and pay every month even if you don’t go.  So  my dear husband and I will continue our nightly walks, and focus even more so on healthy eating.  No more slip ups for this girl.  Another wake up call I guess. 

I’m sending love to all my Buddys here.  I haven’t quite had the chance to catch up on your blogs, only a couple.  Feeling very tired, very bruised (from all the shots, ivs, etc…) and need to rest.

Everyday we really need to take a few minutes and look around at all we have.  We only go around once in life so lets make it the best we can!!

Fear not [there is nothing to fear], for I am with you; do not look around you in terror and be dismayed, for I am your God.  I will strengthen and harden you to difficulties, yes, I will help you; yes, I will hold you up and retain you with My [victorious] right hand of rightness and justice.

——Isaiah 41:10