JustJane48

Whew..what a day “sigh”  an emotional roller coaster for sure.  I had my stress test this morning.  I was able to get my heart rate up to 144 but I was out of breath and in pain.  I saw a Doctor (not my regular) he said my test looked just like the stress test last year.  Last year they did a heart cath and found nothing.  So it sounds like a repeat of last year. 

Hopefully we won’t do the heart cath…thats a horrible procedure.  For now he has changed my meds to a higher dose of Coreg each day and now a long lasting nitro.  I’ve have the long lasting nitro, stopped taking it because of the headache. I will see my doctor Friday Aug 3 to see if the meds have helped.

I did get a yucky feeling when talking to the doctor.  I asked him “could this possibly be my heart is so damaged?  and maybe this is as good as my life will get?”  He hesitated and said he couldn’t predict anything, but he wanted to see if the change in meds would make a difference.

I guess for now I’m kind of at a standstill.  I feel like I just want to sit and cry…and cry….

But I’ll just keep on keeping on and pray the medicine will work.  I know God has a plan for each and everyone of us, but days like today are tough.  I’m sure we all have had days we question our faith.  But we have an awesome God…and he’ll get me through this…and he’ll help all my buddys out there as well!

Letter O — Open your eyes and take in all the beauty around you.  Even during the worst of times, there’s still much to be thankful for.