JustJane48

Today I Will…

Be thankful for this beautiful day.

Know that I am a whole human being and not a statistic.

Live with passion, give with kindness, and love completely.

Find strength in the things that bring me joy.

Express how I feel with honesty.

Listen to my body.

Rest when I’m tired.

Eat when I’m hungry.

Know that I am exactly where I need to be on my journey.

This beautiful message was copied from a Hallmark card “journeys”  and I just felt the need to share this.  I was going to send the card to a special friend, but I have decided to frame it.

Forgetting what lies behind and reaching forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.

Phillippians 3:13-14

Always in my prayers….always sending love and hugs for all my wonderful Buddys here at BuddySlim.  Thank you once again Dr. Marc for creating such a warm comfortable site where friends can come together.

Good Friday Morning my   buddys!! Its almost here, the WEEKEND

When I first joined BuddySlim, I was so curious how to add picture to my blogs and boosters.  I asked someone I never met and she worked me through it.  It took a bit to get the hang of it.  Sometimes I still find sites that don’t work for me.

I have a new buddy here at BuddySlim, and she is trying so hard to get pics in her blogs to jazz them up a bit :) 

Would you tell us the steps you take to get pics in your blogs.

I would really appreciate this as she is such a nice buddy. 

Soooooooooooooooo has everyones week gone well?  Are you looking forward to the weekend????????? I know I am.

Get to change my weight ticker or is it tracker  LOL!!! again today.  My jeans are still way tight, so thats discouraging.  But I do feel better emotionally knowing I can do this…I CAN GET THIS WEIGHT OFF!!!!

Ok..bye bye for now.  Love you guys!!!

Thanks for all your help always!!

Hi Buddys.  I’m really in a bad spot here at home.

My 20 year old son came to live with us last October 2007.  It was only to be temporary while his wife went to school.  They have since divorced, and I can’t seem to get him to leave.

I love him dearly, but I need him to move.  I’ve gone over this in my head over and over, but just can’t get the words I want to say.

As always I’ve been praying for Gods guidance, but I’m stuck.

Hopefully someone can give me some advice or suggestions on how to do this without hurting his feelings.

Thank you guys…Love you All

Good Tuesday Morning my buddys :)  Hope everyones Labor Day weekend was a relaxing, fun time for you all.

I was thinking lately about my “wish list” for my life.  I think when you become sick things look very different.  You look at life in a whole new perspective.

I’ve made many lists of “Dreams” in the past, but I sat down and seriously wrote my best dreams and wishes.

• First & obvious, lose this unwanted weight
• Have many grandchildren
• See my children really be happy in life
• Have a BuddySlim Reunion
• Get to Disneyworld (going in October [fingers crossed])
• I’m adopted, so I’d love to find my birth parents and or siblings.  I’ve tried with no results.  Any one have suggestions?
• Have God lead me into a volunteer position with the handicapped/down syndrome children (they always tug at my heart)
• Live on a lake
• Travel to every state
• Go to Canada to meet my best friend

What are your dreams?  Do you just have one BIG Dream, or do you have a list like I do?

One does not make friends; one recognizes them.

Friendship is in loving rather than in being loved.

He who is true to one friend thus proves himself worthy of many.

God bless you all…sending Big Hugs all around

September 1, 2008.  A new start, a new month and so many changes.  I changed my profile pic and it really makes me sick to think I have let myself go so badly.  This is the BIG version of me.  I promise to God, Myself and all my Buddys I will be showing of SMALLER version of myself soon

Tommorrow is back to work for so many including my husband.  Makes me sad.  We never really had any “alone” time.  Family all around.  I love family but sometimes……………………………..

I also wanted to send this message out, and I’ll probably post it to make sure my buddys receive it.

I’ve always had a few problems commenting on blogs with new buddys. Its frustrating, so I usually send them a message.

Today I am sad because I can’t comment on ANYBODYS blogs :(  Not even my buddys I’ve had for the last year

So I wrote Dr. Marc and asked if there was solution.  I’m sure hoping its an easy fix.  So to all my buddys I haven’t commented on, hopefully tommorrow I’ll have the answer.

God Bless You All….Smile….Be Happy….Love Life….God is soooooooooooooooo Good!!!

Love you all my special buddys

I thought this pic was so adorable I had to share with you

I finally did it and I just have to brag a bit.  Dad took us to Long John Silvers (his fav) and I just prayed they would have a baked fish available.  Last time we went I was faced with nothing but fried.

Well guess what???????????????????????  They had a baked cod platter with coleslaw, rice pilaf, 1/2 ear of corn and 2 hushpuppies.  I was so happy.  I could live on fried foods but I’m really serious about these life saving changes on the eating and exercise.

The meal was delicious, I didn’t eat the rice and only 1/2 the cole slaw, so overall for me this is HUGE!!!

Hope everyone is having a wonder Labor Day Weekend!!!

Its almost the holiday weekend!!!!!!!!! YIPPEE!!!! That means 3 full days with my hubby.  Life just doesn’t get any better then that.

It’s been good reading blogs again.  I’ve missed a few, but I’ll get back to comment.

Today is an important day for my future.  When in the hospital I mentioned Disability and every single Doc and Nurse, even the social worker said I met all the criteria.  Also my psychiatrist said he would back me 100%  So its in the Lords hands for now, but I’d love your prayers. My appointment is at 1:00 this afternoon and my husband will take a 1/2 a day off work to take me :)  We’ll go on our last “fresh corn” (just picked today) drive and it will probably be the last of the season.  I might be too late already, hope not as we love the fresh corn:)

Not sure whats going on with the scale, but I’m losing and loving it.  I’m just afraid I’m losing a bit to fast to be healthy.  I can’t feel it in my clothes, but the scale seems to be accurate.  I went down 2 more pounds since yesterday.  Granted I’m not eating like I used to.  Guess it just goes to show little baby steps will get you to your final goals!!

Hope you all have a wonderful Labor Day Weekend!! Keep moving and NEVER EVER give up.  If its in your heart to lose the weight, you’ll find that place inside and the motivation and determination will follow.  I promise you this

“How rare and wonderful is that flash of a moment when we realize we have discovered a friend.”

Good afternoon all my wonderful buddys!!! I’ve missed this place sooooooooooo much and today I’m finally feeling somewhat energized and healthier!!!

I guess for now just an update over here in Michigan.  My scales are going down down down!!! and I’m eating only healthy foods….very low salt.  I actually found a tortilla chip that is unsalted.  I was thrilled.  Then off to the salsa aisle and after looking at every bottle I found Paul Newmans Salsa with only 109 grams of sodium per 2 tablespoons.  I know 2 tablespoons doesn’t sound like much, but I choose the hot and spicy salsa….and WHEW!!! you only need a couple tablespoons. I’m restricted to 2000 mgs of sodium per day.  If you try to stick to that amount it is definitely a challenge.  I’ve always been a label reader and now even more so.

After the hospital visit I seemed to have lost my appetite for a few days…YIPPEE!!!! but its back just not as strong.

Guess I was just more scared then before with what I eat and drink.

My daughters pregnancy is coming along.  Shes absolutely miserable because baby girl Brooklyn is sitting deep and low and it causes Angela alot of back pain.  Please keep her in your prayers.

I spent the day with little man Talan!!! I think I actually love him more each time I’m with him…Silly I know 

I’m going to change my weight ticker as I’ve seen another drop.  Thank you God for giving me this day…for making me smile…and for allowing me to share my life with my special friends here at BuddySlim.  You guys just couldn’t be any better and I love you all!!!

Have a great day.  Smile…Be Happy…and Lets get this weight off once and for all!!!

   The scales are finally moving in the right direction  DOWN!!!  I was at my largest ever when in the hospital.  Weighing in at 230 put me into a huge depression.

When I came home the scales here said 216.  I was elated.  The doctors said not to worry to much that most of the weight was fluid.  I do believe that now.

I’ve been home a week and have lost 2 pounds.  I’m feeling good about that.  Still very tired and taking the walking a little at a time.  Just a grocery store trip is alot of work, but I have my hubby by my side and I feel confident.

Hope everyone here is doing well.  And I especially want to thank you one and all for all you good wishes and Gods Blessings for me.  Thank you for the prayers and all the love!!!! I love you guys!!!

He {God} Himself has said, I will not in any way fail you nor give you up nor leave you without support.  (I will) not in any degree leave you helpless, nor forsake nor let (you) down relax My hold on you.

Hebrews 13:5

Whew, what a rough few days around here.

The company has come and left and we had a ball!!! We played miniature golf, went bowling and went to the movies (Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2)  (Sorry Shanna, Annie voted for this one, I tried to convince them to go to Mama Mia ) But we had fun and probably ate a few wrong things.  I enjoyed every minute and wouldn’t trade it for anything.

Mom and Annie flew out on Tuesday at 1:45 p.m.  Alan and I went to Red Lobster for lunch….YUMMY!!!  We then went to get Talan for a few hours to give pregnant Angela a break  LOL!!

Had a good night, woke up on Wednesday morning at 8:00 a.m. and felt some chest pain.  I knew right then and there I would be going to the hospital.  I’ve known this episode was coming on for a while.  I did go to the cardiac doc in April and she said I was fine.  I felt she was wrong as I was leaving.

The pain was getting worse and the breathing labored….I called Jon (my son) and said please call 911.  By 9:00 a.m. I was in the ambulance.

I was in intensive care for 3 days.  A LONG 3 days.

I had a flash pulmonary edema once again.  This will be the third visit and sadly this was the one that put me over the edge.

A normal heart’s injection fraction (the ability to pump fluid through the heart into the body) is 55% - 70%  My heart has been hovering around 30- 35%  The tests this time show my injection fraction rate down to 23%  Anything under 30% qualifies you for some devices such as debibulators/pacemakers, etc.  It also qualifies me for complete disability through the state. This is good as we could use the money because I am unable to work outside the home.  I’ll also be assured insurance which will give us peace of mind.

I weighed a whopping 230 pounds upon arrival in the hospital.  The doctors are guessing I had about 15 pounds in retained fluid.  When I came home on Friday evening I weighted in at 216.  Today is 215.  I expect to see the numbers go down because I’m scared to death to do anything wrong.

The walking will be a slow process because of my weak heart.  I can only start out about 10 minutes a walk and work up from there.

Our house is filled with fresh fruits and vegetables.  Good chicken, ground turkey and only a little red meat.  No more salt, we gave all the snacks to my daughter. 

Here we go again…and this time I’ll make it.  I’m going to change my weight ticker once again and with Gods help and  my determination I will win this battle.  The doctor said I am in the “end stages” of congestive heart failure.  There are 4 stages and I’m in stage 3 and showing conditions of stage 4.  I’m not giving up this fight my buddys.  I have way too much to live for.  I may have a weak heart, but I have a determined mind and an attitude that would just about knock you down…LOL!!

I’m so sorry to hear of the news of Angelas Mother….and I continue to pray for Kamas mother, and I hear Marge was in the hospital.  Did I hear Daryl is back at BuddySlim?  I need to look him up as he also suffers with heart problems.  Jennifer I’m praying your ankle heals quickly, and Tatiana I hope you are up and walking again.

I hope I haven’t missed anyone else with medical issues.  I love you all and I have missed you so much.

Sending Gods love and Blessings to you all